To Newspring or not to Newspring

well, I have a dilemma. I am a christian, that is not my dilemma. My delimma is that I have been attending a church in Anderson, SC and I rally liked it when I started going, although my husband stayed home and did nothing while I took our daughter. The church was going through many changes when I first went there, and the changes kept coming from different music, and different people attending, all of a sudden I found myself feeling as comfortable there. Most of the peopl my age were gone except a couple of familes. I am not a member but I am treated as if I am, I also help teach Awna on Wednesday nights. Now, We have recently met my daughter's teacher and she invited my husband and I to visit her church, Newspring(AWESOME). We had heard so many things from so many people about this church and I just wanted to check it out and os did my husband, who likes to sleep in on SUndays and watch sports. We went.... we loved it... more importantly....he loved it... my daughter loved. We have been going off and on for about a month. When I am not going there I attend the other church that I attend. The delimma is that I need to move on to Newspring.... how to do Itell the other churches Pastor and wife that we need to move on. It is a very small church and they ahve had so many members leave them, alot went to Newspring. http://www.newspring.cc/
I feel that they probably don't agree with the Newspring's ideas. They play secular music sometimes. Perry Noble tells you like it is, he is honest and preaches straight from the bible,but, you are not bored ouot of your mind. Also, you feel like you can pertain what he says to your life. If my husband is enjoying going to church and we can go as a family then I am going to go to that church. If there is anyone put there who knows what to do let me know.

I really like Newspring because you can actually be yourself and not wlak around on eggshells around people. IF you are not a believer of Christ that is ok, but still check out there web site it is so entertaining.

well, I was back, gone, and maybe I am back again. We'll see....

The Holidays have come and gone in a flash. So has our Money! I really have a beef about something then I will tchange the subject and won't mention it again. I know christmas( holidays whatever) has past but, I just want to say that no matter what you believe as far as religion goes ( I personally believe in Jesus Christ), you should not make other people feel guilty for their choices. I am mainly talking about the fact of "Happy Holidays" crap that is going on this year, well,it has always been around, but when an employer tells you it is mandatory to say Happy Holidays that you cannot say Merry Christmas while people are out buying Christmas presents, well, THAT'S JUST WRONG!
I understand that some people celebrate Hannukah, others celebrate kwanza etc. there are many religions out there. Many celebrate Christ's birth. Many of you out there celebrate nothing but, getting presents. It doesn't matter. I am a Christian, I have one friend who is Bhuddist, one who is Jewish, and my best friend I believe just has her own thoughts on religion. I know many different people. all of them have told me merry christmas at one point or another. I have told them the same or Happy Hannukah, what ever they celebrate and try to wish them well. We have respect for one other that we don't necessarily speak about, we know we all believe in different things, and we all probably believe the others are wrong and their belief is right, doesn't mean that we cannot be great friends, or be able to say Merry Christmas to each Other without offending one another.
Most people I see out there shopping, are talking about Santa, or christmas tree or Mistletoe, whatever, all of it refers to Christmas. So say Merry Christmas. If it offends someone, they will probably either tell you or suffer siliently while their feelings were so horribly stomped on, I mean I have said Happy Holidays before, I still say it sometimes this year. There is nothing wrong with it, But, don't tell me that during the CHRISTMAS SEASON that I can't say the word Christmas. Next thing you know we won't be able to buy trees at all, we will be buying our trees on the black market and exchanging ornaments on a side street, next year we won't be able to say Happy Thanksgiving because the Corn might get upset or the turkeys will go on strike. We might not be able to say Happy Hannukah because it upsets the other religions too. we might not be able to say God Bless you to someone if they sneeze. We might not be able to have a country decent enough to live in, because everyone is poilitically correct that we are all about to PUKE! I just say get over it ! If you are offended you will still live, I am sure that you will offend someone else to make up for it at some point in your life. I just want things to be like they were in the past warm cozy christmas seasons without all of the crazy crap! I am sorry this turned out to be the subject, I know I said I would talk briefly, but I have been gone a while. I need to go now,I hope you all have a great New Year, oh since I missed talking to you last month. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well, I was back, gone, and maybe I am back again. We'll see....

The Holidays have come and gone in a flash. So has our Money! I really have a beef about something then I will tchange the subject and won't mention it again. I know christmas( holidays whatever) has past but, I just want to say that no matter what you believe as far as religion goes ( I personally believe in Jesus Christ), you should not make other people feel guilty for their choices. I am mainly talking about the fact of "Happy Holidays" crap that is going on this year, well,it has always been around, but when an employer tells you it is mandatory to say Happy Holidays that you cannot say Merry Christmas while people are out buying Christmas presents, well, THAT'S JUST WRONG!
I understand that some people celebrate Hannukah, others celebrate kwanza etc. there are many religions out there. Many celebrate Christ's birth. Many of you out there celebrate nothing but, getting presents. It doesn't matter. I am a Christian, I have one friend who is Bhuddist, one who is Jewish, and my best friend I believe just has her own thoughts on religion. I know many different people. all of them have told me merry christmas at one point or another. I have told them the same or Happy Hannukah, what ever they celebrate and try to wish them well. We have respect for one other that we don't necessarily speak about, we know we all believe in different things, and we all probably believe the others are wrong and their belief is right, doesn't mean that we cannot be great friends, or be able to say Merry Christmas to each Other without offending one another.
Most people I see out there shopping, are talking about Santa, or christmas tree or Mistletoe, whatever, all of it refers to Christmas. So say Merry Christmas. If it offends someone, they will probably either tell you or suffer siliently while their feelings were so horribly stomped on, I mean I have said Happy Holidays before, I still say it sometimes this year. There is nothing wrong with it, But, don't tell me that during the CHRISTMAS SEASON that I can't say the word Christmas. Next thing you know we won't be able to buy trees at all, we will be buying our trees on the black market and exchanging ornaments on a side street, next year we won't be able to say Happy Thanksgiving because the Corn might get upset or the turkeys will go on strike. We might not be able to say Happy Hannukah because it upsets the other religions too. we might not be able to say God Bless you to someone if they sneeze. We might not be able to have a country decent enough to live in, because everyone is poilitically correct that we are all about to PUKE! I just say get over it ! If you are offended you will still live, I am sure that you will offend someone else to make up for it at some point in your life. I just want things to be like they were in the past warm cozy christmas seasons without all of the crazy crap! I am sorry this turned out to be the subject, I know I said I would talk briefly, but I have been gone a while. I need to go now,I hope you all have a great New Year, oh since I missed talking to you last month. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm back

yes

I am finally back on my site, that is if anyone has even visited!
I have totally been out of the loop recently. Little Miss Attitude has started k-4 A hurricane hit, my 34th birthday arrived. Alot has been going on!

I haven't really had a lot to complain about,I really have had a geat couple of months and I guess I didn't feel the need to rant, plus, getting up earlier these days has taken its toll on me. I have been going to be very early. Plus,catching up on my favorite shows. I LOVE TIVO!

I guess now I have a few things to complain about so I am back. First off, we have been trying to have a second child. Technically, I have been trying to get pregnant for about 3 years. My husband and I have been trying for about 3 months. It took me all of the previous years, of hounding, begging, showing him our friend's new babies ( don't do this by the way)to finally get him to the point, of agreement. So, we are finally here, trying, but, I knew I had some weight issues, and health problems, and I wanted to go to my Rhuematologist to follow up on some test results.
Some good news, it wasn't arthritis, etc. But, the bad news is that I have to stop trying to get pregnant for at least three months, so he can recheck all of my blood work once more, because I am showing signs of some kind of auto-immune disease but,I may never know exactly what is wrong. In the meantime, my eggs are shriveling up as we speak. My daughter is going to be an adult sibling. my husband finally agrees to have another child and now this crap!! I know it is for a good reason. But, I can still be mad!

Ok, the second thing is My In-laws!

My daughter had her first Grandparents Day at her school. My parents live in a different state, and could not be here, but, my husband's parents live down the street. I literally wrote the date on their calendars and reminded them repeatedly. They assured me they would be there. Except that we are talking about CudaDad's parents. I love them, but they are not normal people.

On this special day my child had to spend her morning in class all by her self while all if the others grandparents were sitting in the class with their grandchildren. I would have sat in there with her, but, had volunteered to help with the day, so I couldn't stay in there.
My mother in law, had changed her doctors appointment to the time of the classroom visit. My father-in-law decided to do some other business meeting. Instead of coming when he meeting was over, he went back to his office and waited on Grandma to come get him only she did not know this, she finally came just in time to see my daughter perform on stage. My father in law, still not there. He finally arrives in time for the luncheon, and they have lunch, a nice catered lunch, with white tablecloths and all of the beautiful decorations, it was truly a nice display. Beautiful desserts and it wasn't too fancy, it was just right.

First they complained about the fact that I could not sit there the whole time, but, like I said before I was volunteering for the dinner. The second complaint came a few days ago. Little Miss Attitude did not get her own lunch, because I ordered one for her and myself to share. They did not know this, most childrent just had their snack that they brought to school. It was uo to the parents to by the dinners for everyone.
My MIL told me over lunch that they had a talk and that they were just not satisfied with that that Grandparents day luncheon. Theu didn't didn't like that the children didn't get lunch, just the grandparents. I told her I had bought the dinners in advance, it was up to the parents to by their children something, and thst my daughter did have a lunch. Then she decided that they thought it was just awful that they provided such a nice display, that they thought having a hotdog and chips would have been sufficient. Not once could they say something nice about the day, or that they hated to miss out all of the events. When I offered my daughter to show her classroom to her grandfather he reluctantly agreed to it. He only came for the lunch and was ready to go back to work. They do love her, but, they lve themsleves more. I am sure this is not true, but, many things they do seem to be self serving. When my MIL told me these things, I was so pissed off. I did bite my tongue,but, I did add that the school is a nice school and that they do their dinners like that, and I mentioned that I had paid for the dinners in advance, I really didn't want them to know that I had bought their lunch, I was just trying to be nice.

I just get so angry that they just don't care, they complain about everything. Whether it is a restaurant or hotel, or a dinner, or a present. i am just tired of it all. I had to deal with my daughter constantly wondering where her grandparents were and why weren't they in her class, not once did they apologize to her.
Next time, I believe we will miss the grandparents day, or I will tell them about it and plan to be in my daughter's class if they don't pull through. I will plan to just get used to the selfishness for the next 12 or 13 years that my daughter is in school. Either that, or plenty of valium.

Pictures of Gulfport

The Pier in Gulfport and Little Miss Attitude with her Papa in front of the house.Pictures taken July 2005

Katrina

Katrina has come ashore, and she has no mercy on us.

My husbands parents bought an old house in Gulfport about 10 years ago. A vacation home for us, their second home. It isn't anything fancy, but perfect for what we do there. They had just remodeled a lot of it 2 years ago. It is about a 1/2 mile from the beach. That used to be a good thing. Now it isn't. The news makes it sound like everything is gone. I guess we won't know anything until tomorrow.
So far there has been fifty deaths in Harrison County. Who knows how many more there will be
I can remember arguing with Cudadad about going to my in laws house for vacation. I did't want to go. I always managed to have some fun though. The first time my daughter saw the ocean was at the beach in Gulfport, MS. I remember sitting on the front screened porch at night. All of us hanging out. Talking about what we did that day, planning the next day.
I used to get so aggravated when we were there, because I spent half of my time, doing what other people wanted to do. Usually my plans never really happened. Now, I would love to just be able to sit on the front porch again.

I never thought this would affect me this much, but, I guess I really do care, I am already thinking of all the good things we have done there. Seeing my daughter play with my Mother in laws Mardi Gras dolls, and beads. My mother in law has beautiful fan pulls. they are all the same in every room. glass fish for the lights, various ones for fans. I gave her a hummingbird one, when I went on a shopping trip to Bay St. Louis.

I don't know if they will be there. Neighbors that are so sweet, they walk their dogs everyday and pass by, Little Miss Attitude always has to pet them. I know some of those neighbors stayed behind. I hope they are ok. I worry about this big tree right in front of the house, the tree needed to come down. I worry that it fell on the house. I guess I should worry about the water, and everything else. The house made it through Hurricane Camille in 1969, so maybe there is a chance it made it throught this one.
We go there on th Fourth of July and we would always watch the fireworks over the ocean. There is a a railroad near by, that when we first would go stay there, it would keep us up all night. Now it helps us sleep. We love to hear it in the night.
We have had a Thanksgiving there. it was nice. The whole family was there that year.

I pray and hope that everyone we know and all of the others will make it. I pray that the Shrimper's familes can get by without there boats. I pray that our family memories won't just be memories, and that the old house will still be an old house when we go back. that my little girl can go there again and sit on the front porch asking how soon we can go to the beach.

I hope next time we visit I can see the glass fish hanging from the lights, and the windchimes on th front porch, and that maybe when we have our next child someday they will be able to see the same front porch that Little Miss Attitude has done all of these years.

God Bless

Growing too fast

I guess it has finally happened, my little girl, is growing up. She has pretty much left our nest. Well, not really, but, it feels like it is happening that fast. We just brought her home, I know we did. It was just yesterday that I took her for her first week check up.
I can remember the first time she went to a babysitter, and how I hated it. It was her Grandma, and she was six months old. She had not been with another soul alone, expect me or her father.
I hated leaving her. Now I have to go through it again. I guess the scene will be repeating itself over and over for years to come.

This week my " Little Miss Attitude" ( by the way that reputation proved itself to be so true in this story)went off to k4 this week. I thought it would be great for her, she will love to go and make friends, learn a lot of great things.

She Proved me wrong. At first, anyway.
We walk not the school, no problem, we go into the classroom, problem!
My daughter immediately turns around and says she is not going in.....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I had a child running down a hallway, finally ending in the teachers arms heels digging into the floor, screaming " Get off of me", "Let me go"
and much more.

She finally went inside and I shut the door behind them, while she cried I leaned upon the door waiting until her crying had stopped. It took a few minutes. I hated doing that, I waited until she seemed ok, not to upset. I left. I then tries to call Daddy, friends grandparents to tell them the ordeal.

Then I went to my Favorite place and shopped to my hearts content without a child screaming that they had to pee, or they wanted a toy,candy,etc, etc. It was great!
I went and picked my child up at school, SHE LOVED IT! We have not had any problems since that first day.

To make the week even more exciting, she left me once again. This time voluntarily. She chose to spend the night for the first time, she has never left me. Only one night when my mother had surgery and I still had put her to bed, and came back the next morning. She was an infant. Otherwise, we have not left our child with anyone over night. EVER!

I was ready for this transition, but, not to have it the same time, as going to preschool. I am happy that we can now plan a nice anniversary trip, but on the other hand, I am sad that my little girl doesn't;t need ma all of the time anymore. I guess I need her.

I did I drive by that night on the golf cart around 11:30pm. Just making sure there wasn't any crying or anything. All of the lights were out. Apparently, it was me who had the problem all along. I just drove on home, and went to bed, and I happily greeted her in the morning. I feel as though I have hardly seen my little girl for a few days. I know she is only four years old. But, it was only yesterday that she was four days old. So I have I right to be a little sad. But, hey I am excited, I am dropping her off to school tomorrow, going to breakfast, and coming to my house to do whatever I want for 3 hours.

I guess it isn't that bad after all. hmm. I can actually watch TV tomorrow, oh, no.... I can read a book, without locking the bathroom door! Ok. Everything is ok now!

The river runs through it...

Well, I did something today that I really was hoping would never be mentioned let alone actually go through with it.
The word Enema. No not for me, Just by me.

No, I am not a nurse, not even close. No, I am not a Proctologist, I do not have any profession that requires the buttocks, and poop, unless you are my child.

The problem is, I didn't really ever expect to be so close to my mother-in-law, I mean, I remember not getting along with her in the early years and wishing that I could get to know her better. I didn't know that I would know her this much!!!

The poor woman, God Help Her, is in the most horrific pain in the world. I have seen it, and it isn't pretty. I feel for her, I really do. I will help her in anyway I can, but, I just have to get something off my chest.


I HATE GIVING CRAPPY EMEMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



What other kind would there be :}

I never grew up planning to be a healthcare professional, just for these reasons. I cannot stand the smell of vomit, because I am what you call a sympathetic puker. If you puke, and I see you puke, then I will puke. I have since gotten over this somewhat, when you have a child throw up all over you.

But, a grown person, puke, pee, crap, that I just can't handle. All of you people out there that do this for a living. God Bless you, you need it, you need a raise, too.

I woke up this morning thinking this day really sucks, because I had to pay bills, and do some laundry,clean, etc, etc. I guess I got the crappy end of the deal.


Sorry, I had to put that in here somewhere

Then the phone call comes, they need my help, ok, I can do that. I thought maybe she needed me to help her clean, or somthing like that. Well, I cleaned one thing out, that's for sure!

Well, I really shouldn't go on about my mother-in-law that way. She is a very good person, and would be there for me. She has been very sick in recent months, and we almost lost her. I should be thankful that she is still here.

I dropped off some medicine to her this evening, laxatives, just to share with you,

Anyway, they need me back tomorrow. I guess I need to get a bigger box of Latex Gloves!